Tuesday, March 3, 2009

I'm sorry, but...

I'm at the place where I'm trying really hard not to be jealous and not react negatively when I hear people talk about their own blessings and I'm working towards standing once more in the sunlight and be 100% honest when I say I'm in a good and happy place.

The fact of the matter is... I'm currently not.

So please, if you find yourself anywhere on the following list please know that in my heart of hearts I am thrilled for you and am prayerfully thankful that you have had the blessing(s) you have... but right now it's just hard for me.

1. You are pregnant
2. Your adoption is close to happening
3. You have a little one

So that makes a very narrow part of the population that doesn't make me cry or my heart ache. It's not your fault. It's noone's fault. Give me a little time and I'll get better - I promise.


  1. Ann, I'm thinking of you, my heart aches for you. Take all the time you need, we'll still be here. xxxxxx

  2. you have no need to apologize. remember to be kind to you and take the time that you need to help yourself heal.

    you're in my prayers.

  3. I go through cycles of "more ok" and "less ok". And after three and a half years, I've finally realized that's normal and I don't apologize for it anymore.

  4. I agree with Me. You do not need to apologize. Most of us reading this blog understand. It is normal as you are going through this IF journey. Take the time you need.

  5. (((HUGS))) I'm abiding with you.

    You take all the time you need.

  6. If it makes you feel any better, I nominated you for an award on my blog!