Saturday, January 30, 2010

Last day...

... of Antibiotics! We're going out to eat to celebrate. It's funny but I'd rather take tons of pain then a little nausea. Hoping to get back a bit of my appetite and not dread eating once this gets out of my system. Bleh, they've been the ickiest part so far. Not horrendous... but still plenty icky.

Thanks all for the continued support.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Sitting in my room...

Well, I'm currently attending a conference and even though it's been so nice to have time to myself, eat good food and stay in a really comfy hotel room - I really, really miss my DH. Going home tomorrow so it will be good to be home again.

I'm sitting in my room waiting for my alarm to go off for my Lupron injection and trying to keep down the antibiotics I took right after dinner. I don't have any crackers to munch on or hard candies so I'm feeling a little bit bummed but it is too cold to go out and brave it. The upside... only 2 more days on these things!! Sunday will be my day of freedom and I'm looking forward to it.

I would have liked to stay downstairs longer and talked with folks - but they were all going for glasses of wine/beer and I could see it getting late and I need to do my shot soon. That and I can't drink right now. So even though I'm not wanting to drink, I need to do my shot AND would much rather get to bed early... I'm still feeling sorry for myself. I'll muddle through but right now is just a tough time and anxiety is a bit high.

Currently praying for strength.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

DH is a Rock Star

The best part of this journey (other than the hope for the final result of a beautiful blessing) is the strengthening of our marriage. My DH (darling husband) is a guy who has read the books with me, gone through our folder multiple times and came in from woodworking in the garage 15 minutes early so he could clean up prior to giving me my Lupron injection (which I had told him I could very well do on my own...).

He wants to do this side by side and I can't express just how AWESOME that is. Being committed is one thing ... but being a completely 50/50 journey was something that makes this journey so much easier. For those of you out there going through IVF and have an awesome partner ... let them know they are a rock star! =)

On a medical update, I can not WAIT to get off these antibiotics as they feel like they are bubbling over in my tummy and I'm so ready to be off of it. The Lupron shots aren't all that bad and I'm looking at them as a stepping stone into bigger and better (um, right...) things.


Sunday, January 24, 2010

Bleh, Antibiotics Stink!

Today was day one of my antibiotics. I'm taking 100mg of Doxycycline and 500mg Flagyl, twice a day with food ... and woah baby they are not playing nice on the ol tummy. Nothing I can't handle but definately not a comfy feeling and things do not seem to be playing nicely. This journey rocks! *smirk*

Here's my schedule for those asking:
01/07-01/27: Desogen BCP
01/21-02/16: Lupron 10 units SQ, every PM
01/24-01/30: Doxycycline 100mg, twice daily
01/24-01/30: Flagyl 500mg twice daily
02/08-02/16: Repronex 225 IU SQ, every PM
02/08-02/16: Follistim 225 IU SQ, every AM

02/04-02/16: 4-5 u/s with blood levels
02/17-02/20: retrieval one of these days
02/22-02/24: embryo transfer one of these days

So there it is in a nutshell. Prayers of strength, patience and goodwill are awesome and thank you all who drop me notes (some of you daily) saying you are with us in spirit and keeping us in your prayers. It means so much to know that there are people walking this journey with us. Blessings!

Friday, January 22, 2010

2nd Day on Lupron

No really big news to report as things are going pretty smoothly. Just did our second Lupron shot and so far no side effects other then the very slight pinch of the injection itself. Darling hubby is the one giving me the injections and it's definately a team process. I can't imagine not having him in my life - my biggest blessing.

“All human wisdom is summed up in two words - wait and hope.”
- Alexandre Dumas Père

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Progress Report

Today is CD13 and I have been on the baby Asprin and Desogen BCP for almost 2 weeks and I'm getting much better with the nausea and fatigue side effects. So far it's been pretty easy. Thursday night I start my 10mg Lupron injections and I'll start a new set of fun side effects. I don't expect them to be all that much.

Desogen and Baby Asprin

Lupron Injections

More updates in the coming days. Thanks to all who read this and might say a soft prayer just for strength, patience and understanding as we walk this journey in hopes that one day we'll get to hear two of the most precious of words... "Mom and Dad."

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Desogen BCP

Quick question to those who have been on Desogen...

Did you find that the pill made you feel like crap? There's not really one major thing that it is doing to me but my tummy just feels "off," I'm cranky, tired and just feeling like I want to crawl into a hole and tell the entire world to pi$$ off.

*blink blink* This isn't me and yet has been me since starting this last Thursday. Nothing I can't deal with... but I'm afraid it's bugging the heck out of those who have to deal with me on a day-to-day basis. *smirk*


Thursday, January 7, 2010

Today is CD1

Got a call back from the doc today and today has become CD1 and I am officially on the IVF journey. Stopping the medroxyprogesterone and starting on the Desogen birth control pill (BCP) and baby aspirin. According to my calendar I will stay on those through January 27th.

My next "milestone" day will be January 21st when I begin my Lupron injections. Knowing they are a SQ shot is very helpful and it sounds like I can ease into this whole prickly part of the treatment. (SQ means subcutaneous injection, meaning just under the skin and a small needle)

So this is good news and I'm not as broken as I was worried I was.

"That which does not kill us, makes us stronger."
- Friedrich Nietzche

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Shouldn't be happening...

Well, I have 2 days left on medroxyprogesterone and then my CD1 should come after another 5 days to 2 weeks... and tonight I am having what would lead me to fully believe on a regular cycle that tomorrow would be CD1. Going to call tomorrow and see what the answer might be - but of course tonight I'm thinking bad thoughts, nervous, anxious and all in all worried that something is very wrong.

So nothing new to really report... except that emotions are high and anxiety is crazy. More info when I know more myself.