Thursday, December 25, 2008

Merry Christmas

Wishing all the blessings of Christmas and a healthy, happy and magical 2009.

1 comment:

  1. Hi Ann!

    It was a blessing to get on my blog and find that I had another follower! Thank you so much! I love new followers. For me blogging started on December 15th and has been a wonderful outlet for me. Actually, my cousin (actually my cousin's wife Lisa) got me started on blogging. They have suffered through many trials with infertility and finally through IVF in 2007 had a gorgeous little boy named Cameron.

    If you look at my page, the other ladies that are my followers are also a great source of support. They too suffer from PCOS. Anna, which is my cousin's mother-in-law is the only one that is a follower without PCOS. Lisa, my cousin, got her started blogging as way to show off her creative talents. Lisa's blog is a great one to look at and is called My Journey Through Infertility. Actually, they were on the news about their journey through infertility and Cameron's birth through IVF. She is a great source of support in so many ways and always loves to have new followers too. :) The other ladies that I have on my list of followers, as well as the blogs that I follow (which I forgot about) are great sources of support too.

    My husband and I got married in early August and at the end of August I went off of my birth control pills and have been trying the natural way to conceive with the help of Glucophage, or actually the generic form of it. So far I have had a normal cycle each month, or at least had a
    cycle each month since coming off the pill. This in someways gives me hope that maybe things are not going to be as severe as I can make them in my mind? Last month and this month I have been doing ovulation tests, with no second line appearing at all last month and the glimmer of a line this month. I am hopeful that the second line will darken so that I know my LH surge level is ready for us to try and have a good chance. So, for now we are just beginning the journey to try to start our family. With so many prayers from not only family and friends, but friends on my blog page, I feel so blessed.

    Being in my 30's makes it kind of stressful eventhough I know there are lots of women who don't start their family until much later. However, I have always had in the back of my mind this PCOS deal and not knowing how it would effect me when trying to have a family. Not meeting my husband and getting married until my 30's puts a little bit of stress on me in knowing that it may take me a while to have that first little bundle of joy, with the prayers and hopes of more than just one. But, will feel and be so blessed with one. :) You know farmers need to have someone to pass their livelihood onto for the next generation and future ones after that.

    I need to find an OBGYN because when I married my husband, I moved 3 hours away from my family, left a full time teaching job (in Ohio, they are so hard to come by which is why I am subbing for now and hopeful an opening is in my near future), left the church that I was born and raised in and had deep family roots in, as well as my close knit family and friends. So, as you can see I need to find a wonderful and Christian person in that field. My family doctor, which has been such a positive support for me, has been the only one that so far I have been doctoring with as far as the PCOS goes. She has also told me that whenever we want, she will refer us to a fertility specialist in the area because of my previous and known diagnosis of PCOS, eventhough you are not considered to have fertility issues until 1 to 2 years of actively trying.

    I try to remain hopeful each day and not let it be my sole focus, but unfortunately it is somedays. My depression on occasion gets the best of me and can be severe. I am on an anti-depressant and have been for several years. There are lots of days that I spend in tears, especially when I am home alone and have so much time to think about things and dream of what I have wanted for so long and feel like God has called me to be.

    I can sympathize with you when you talk about friends and family asking the questions constantly about having children. Actually it started for us the day we got married. My husband and I are so much in love and I have always told everyone that I would like a big family. So, with them knowing that, they were asking my mom if we were going to have Christmas or a baby first? I also have a friend whose first words to me on the phone are "well, is there any news?" Sometimes is drives me nuts as I am sure that it does you too.

    Just know that I am here for you and will keep you and your husband in our prayers. I believe in the power of prayer and am so hopeful for you. Getting to know other ladies and having the support on my blog page has been a truly uplifting experience everyday for me. I look forward to everday when I can get on and post a new blog and then have comments from some really wonderful ladies. :)

    Thank you for finding my blog and wanting to follow, I appreciate it so much. I am not so computer savy, so thanks too for your patience as I learn more about all of the neat things that can be done with my blog page. :) Lisa is helping me along the way and has a beautiful page not only for her journey with infertility, but her primitives and beautiful garden as well. I too hope to eventually add pictures and other blogs about our wedding, farm life, my primitives and family and friends to on my page. Sometimes I can be impatient, which I have been learning about since I was in high school and college. :)

    Have a blessed day and I will look forward to following you and then hearing the good news in the near future. :)

    Lots of smiles and blessings,
    Stacey :)