Feeling Better

Quick update - the increase in meds has stopped the bleeding that kicked in yesterday. They had told me if I saw red at all to contact them asap - so when I woke up Friday morning to what appeared to be a start of my cycle with bright red on my liner and some decent cramping - I have to admit I hit an emotional "oh my gosh, no."

After talking with the office the fact that it was still light was good and they told me to now wear 3 patches (instead of two) and to call if the bleeding gets heavy... well, as of this morning it has stopped. Praying that things are still on track and that we'll find out the lining is thick enough next week and we can keep going.

Thank you all for the continued prayers.

Retrieval Day

Last night had a horrible nightmare that I went in to retrieval and came out to hear there were no eggs. Woke up sweating and my heart just pounding... but it was my #1 worry with this procedure...

I didn't have to worry. I went in at 9:45am this morning and was called back at 10am. Got changed into a sexy and cheeky gown and given a warm blanket. IV started to help with happy juice and then had a short wait. Taken back and I don't remember much other then a couple of painful pokes and some uncomfortable pressure. All in all it was pertty much a breeze.

After a little bit of waiting the news came... 10 eggs! I was praying for anything over 5 and 7 would have been great... but 10! Now to see how they will fertilize and play nice. Thinking some darkness, a little mood music and warm thoughts and prayers should do it. Will hear more tomorrow about what our numbers look like and how things are going. Will post more when I have it.

Again, thank you all for your prayers and thoughts.

Friday = Sick Day

Well, today I called in sick to work and although I know it was the right call I always feel embarassed and bad about doing so. I have a good 140+ hours sick leave just sitting in the bank but it still feels icky to use them and not get work done.

Last night had a pretty hefty headache starting and was worried it was going to slip into a full on migraine by morning. This morning I woke up to a morning full of strong cramps (CD3), bad headache and some nausea. I think alot of it has to do with the hormones and the Lupron but I also think that not sleeping as well as I could be due to anxiety could have thrown things a bit caddywumpus. After an extra 5 hours this morning a bit of a headache still lingers and some fatigue, but I'm feeling much better.

Anyone else feel really guilty when you call in sick? I wonder how much of it might have been growing up a teacher's kid and and the fact that I needed to be near death to ever miss a day. *smirk*

CD1

Yup, major cramping going on along with headaches that could bring down a buffalo. Definately Day 1 and will be starting the Femera again on Wednesday.

I realize HE doesn't give us more than we can handle... but wow. HE must think really highly of me and my patience level. Going to keep fighting.

CD1

AF has arrived and the cramps are about a 8 out of 10. Midol on board and heating pad applied and hoping that things improve.

Working from home today as yesterday was an emotional struggle that made being at work uncomfortable for both myself and my co-workers who can't put their finger on what might be going on. I'm very blessed to have a boss who understands.

It's amazing just how many tears one seems to have.