Postponed

Haven't updated in awhile as things have been pretty status quo and with a FET cycle there really hasn't been much going on other than wearing my Vivelle patches and the nightly Lupron shot.

Today I went to my full checkup and found out that my lining isn't where we want it to be. I'm at a 4 to 5 and we want it around 8 to 9. So we have postponed my transfer until June 17th. To beef up the lining I get to take 2mg Estradiol 2x daily ... and I WISH I could take them orally - if you get my meaning. Here's hoping that a week on this med will help things along and we'll be ready to go.

Not the news I had wanted, but I guess we just have to go with the flow and be thankful that the cycle hasn't been canceled (yet). Prayers would be awesome.

Quick Update...

u/s went well and will hear by 2pm if my u/s and/or blood work suggest a change in my stims dosages. *tick tock*

Ladies who have done the IVF route and gone in for that first u/s following your start of stims (day 3) ... what did you see, find out, etc? I figured I would wait til my Friday morning u/s to really ask questions but from what I was seeing it looked like 5-6 on the right that were getting good sized and 3-4 on the left. What did you see?

Blessings.

Baseline!

Went in today for my baseline u/s and blood work for my Estradiol level to see if things are moving along and if I'm ready to continue on and start stims next week. I passed through with flying colors and will start stims on monday with my next u/s and blood work on Wednesday.

CD15, Tomorrow is our day

Following the tests this morning *wince* it appears tomorrow will be “our day” again. It happens to fall on our 4th wedding anniversary. Trying to hold onto the fact things will go well but my pessimism runs high (no matter how much I try to tell myself different).

Today's u/s showed two follies on the right and one on the left.

If you could say a soft prayer tomorrow that’d be awesome.

CD15

U/S showed good news today. Left side (side that has been cramping like crazy) shows a 14 and a 24. I've never had a follie over 21 before so that's promising. Tomorrow is our day and then we begin the 2ww.

Sorry my updates have been few, far between and short but I guess I'm just as enthusiastic as I once was. So hard to stay positive. Any advice along that line would be more than welcome. We've been trying full on since November and it's starting to seem impossible.

*hugs* Thanks all.

God is Good

Today is CD3 and I had an u/s to see if my large cyst had passed on its own - otherwise we were going to need to take another month off and hit it with meds to get it to pass. There was no evidence of the cyst at all and we are able to start our Femara cycle and get on with trying for our miracle. God is so good.

We will be going on 7.5mg of Femara for this cycle and I'm also going to try to walk more along with maybe starting a bit of yoga. Promised myself I'd start slow - otherwise I tend to get overwhelmed and quit before I get going.

James 1:2-8
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does." Amen

HSG X-Ray Study

I should NOT surf the net the night before a procedure to find out more about it. Now I'm scared to death that it will be horrible pain from cramping during the procedure. I'm taking ibuprofen prior to the procedure to help me relax but when I'm starting out so worried that'll be hard to do.

I wasn't worried til last night and I started surfing comments by women who have had an HSG run and they all said it was horrible and the pain was intense. Hmmm.

So I have the procedure here in about 4 hours and I'll post back to let you all know a) just how horrible it was or b) just how nervous I got for no reason.

Anyone have this procedure and could pass along any feedback?
Blessings.

Friday, Time to catch up

First of all, a special thank you to the two of you who sent me emails asking if things were ok as you hadn't seen me posting in awhile. I'm doing ok, just have been really emotional lately and haven't wanted to blog about it. Feeling a bit better now but still struggling with the whole "nothing seems to be working" side of things.

Today I went for my u/s as I was CD14 and usually have one on CD15, but that would fall tomorrow, Saturday. So I went in today and found out that I have two small follies on my right side and a bigger (17) on the left... along with a big ol bully of a cyst. *sigh* Not enough to cancel this month's IUI but something to watch.

So here's the timeline:
Tomorrow, Saturday: 9:30pm Ovidrel trigger shot
Monday Morning, IUI

Should things not work and AF shows, then on CD3 we'll check to see if the cyst is gone via another u/s. IF gone we will continue on ... but if it is still there we'll have to stop and take care of it with a month on Birth Control Pills and try to flush it out. Argh. So I'm prayin that things will work out and we get lucky with a blessing THIS month and not have to worry about things... or at least the cyst will give up ship and move along.

It's always something.

CD14

Well, this morning there was no hint of a second line on the OPK and as I'll be out of town tomorrow I called today to ask what I should do as my CD15 is out of town and CD16-17 will be over the weekend. They called back and I will have an u/s today over my lunch hour to see how we are progressing and plan from there.

I'm also excited to see what the ladies have been upto and I'm pretty sure this month's activity is in Ms Left's corner. She's been cranky the last two days. So I'll know more this afternoon and will try to update then.

Update:
The u/s went really well and I have 2 follies (20 and 20.5) on the left side ready to go. The only "problem" is I'm out of town tomorrow. So I've been given 250 MCG / .5ml of Ovidrel that I get to inject into my tummy tonight and then go in for the IUI first thing Saturday morning. Exciting and scary at the same time. I'm thinking "don't release yet" happy thoughts.

Oh look... another rollercoaster hill...

Well, went in for my u/s today (CD17) and told the gal (they are all SUPER nice where I go) that I'm not sure we should even do the "stupid" u/s (I was moody, I admit) because my line had gone away. She chuckled softly (in a nice way) and said that I shouldn't put all my stock into OPKs. She said "let's look anyway." So, I plunked down another $200 and... oh my gosh... good news?!?

I have 2 follies on the right side still (haven't O'd yet!) and she said they were 19 and 17. (which is really good...) So we do our IUI tomorrow morning. Going to talk to the DH about a possible back to back IUI (would be tomorrow and then also Wednesday) or we might wait another cycle and try that. I hate that all this is determined by the almighty dollar. *sigh* Any rich folks out there like to adopt a loving couple with fertility issues?

So there it is... I'm at the top of another hill and I'm going to let myself be happy - but guarded. Here we go again...

CD14 ... Hmmm.

Well, this morning I called the doc and let them know that I've had a faint line on the OPK now for 2 days and now have a little bit of discharge. My tummy is a little off and I have a headache... other then that nothing. So I called mostly to ask with the weekend coming up what hours there were open and what to do if I'd get a magical surge... and they said "come on in today and we'll do an u/s and check how you're doing." Um... ok. :)

So I have my u/s here at 10:30 and I"m nervous. Afraid it will be:
a) Nope, nothing happening.
b) Sorry, we missed it this cycle.
c) Sorry... you're completely broken.

It amazes me how no matter how much pep talk I give myself - my first thoughts tend to be so negative. I need to be thinking "woo hoo, this might be it" or "it could be tomorrow" or "it's awesome that there's a little bit of LH now in my system!" Argh. That needs to be a new year's resolution for me ... work on a positive frame of mind.


Update:
Actually the news wasn't bad at all. The u/s shows that I'm not quite there yet ovulation wise but that I am definately "in process." We are going to hold steady and continue to watch the OPK results over the weekend and if I get a surge I'm calling in. Otherwise I have an appt on Monday for another u/s to see how much further along we are.

Numbers:
Lining: 9.5
Follies, right side: 11, 8
Follies, left side: 5, 7, 7.5

So... we continue to be patient. *smirk* Yea, right.