Headaches Suck

Last night I got a bit worried as I got that mind numbing "here comes a headache" feeling and had hoped that a good night of sleep would kick it to the curb... didn't happen. Woke up this morning with a raging migraine. Went back to sleep and then got up around 10:30am, got ready and headed out towards work. Stopped for a quick lunch and felt quite sick and fatigued... to the point that I called work and said I was going back home. What a wasted day, bleh.

Feeling much better tonight, however. Will be heading back to the world tomorrow. Been on Lupron now since last Friday and will be going in for bloodwork and fun things next Tuesday. Only 3 days left of the damn Desogen BCP so that's a really good thing.

Blessings all.

It's like Christmas!

Ok, not really. Actually, not even close... but I do have a big bag of "goodies" and am ready to start another cycle of bliss. There ARE a couple of positives with this cycle, however. I have to keep focused on that.

So here we are, the goodie bin for this round:



Ok, at first glance it's a huge freak-out-fest but when I start looking at the contents it's odd just how much I can sit back and say "it's ok... I've been here, done that and can do it again. Bring it on."

So here's the list:
Lupron - Icky small needles, low side effects.
Vivelle Patches - Icky, painless but make me feel funky.
Progesterone - Icky BIG needles, low side effects.
Methylprednisolone - Causes ADHD - but only 2 days this time!
Doxycycline - Causes major nausea - but only 2 days this time!

And here's the BIG news...
NO REPRONEX THIS TIME AROUND! *happy dance*

Ok, so there's the game plan. Lupron shots start this Friday and I'm finishing up my 2nd week on the Desogen BCP which isn't that nice to my moods, tummy or head so I'll be glad when we get that part over with. Here we go...

Calendar in Hand

Got my calendar for the FET cycle and wow... it seems like it's a ton shorter as our transfer day will be June 10th. *boggle* Yeowza. Here's basically how it will shake down:

4/23-5/13 - Started my lovely Desogen BCP
5/07-6/03 - Lupron 10 units SQ (easy peasy)
5/18 - Estradiol Level Drawn
5/18-6/09 - Much less lovely u/s appts
5/18-6/?? - Vivelle Dot Patches
6/05-6/?? - Big 'Ol Progesterone shots
*** NOTICE NO STIMS! NO REPRONEX!! (Good Thing!) **
6/09-6/19 - Methyprednisolone and Doxycycline (Nooo!)
6/10 .... Embryo transfer day (Bring it!)

So that in a nutshell is the game plan. Aren't you just so jealous?!? Actually it's a whole lot easier the second time around. I know it'll suck some weeks and that it does get better. My saying is "I can do ANYTHING for a week."

So here we go... *Choo Choo!*

BCP and Tummy Issues

Ok, one week into the Desogen BCP and my tummy hasn't been good for a few days and today after lunch (I really think it was mostly something I ate) I literally had to race home after 20 minutes in the bathroom at work. Wasn't pretty. I keep thinking this can't be just from the BCP so I looked back at a journal from January...

"Did you find that the pill made you feel like crap? There's not really one major thing that it is doing to me but my tummy just feels "off," I'm cranky, tired and just feeling like I want to crawl into a hole and tell the entire world to pi$$ off."

Second time around it's not any better it seems. My co-workers are in for a tough 2 more weeks ... I'm never going back to Bonanza no matter WHO asks me to. Sorry, nope, not goina do it. *smirk*

New Game Plan

Had a good meeting with the RE over the lunch hour (and got to snag lunch with the DH). He took the extra time to walk through the entire IVF process and what our results were at each stage. He was very, very positive and let us know that we are responding really well and that we are on the right track.

We also talked about the resulting chemical pregnancy and he was very sure that we "got there" and things just didn't stick. He feels that just getting to the point that we had 2 beautiful embies on transfer day was a big thing and reminded me it wasn't anything I did/didn't do that resulted in the BFN. That helped. No matter what I KNOW ... the feelings of "what did I do wrong" just won't stop traveling my brain and my heart. Tough road.

So the battle plan is to do a FET cycle (frozen embie transfer) starting with my next CD1 back on Desogen (the BCP that makes me feel icky). That should happen sometime in mid-April so no news til then. Thanks to all who are still out there and following this wickedly nasty (physically/emotionally) journey.

Progress Report

Today is CD13 and I have been on the baby Asprin and Desogen BCP for almost 2 weeks and I'm getting much better with the nausea and fatigue side effects. So far it's been pretty easy. Thursday night I start my 10mg Lupron injections and I'll start a new set of fun side effects. I don't expect them to be all that much.


Desogen and Baby Asprin


Lupron Injections

More updates in the coming days. Thanks to all who read this and might say a soft prayer just for strength, patience and understanding as we walk this journey in hopes that one day we'll get to hear two of the most precious of words... "Mom and Dad."

Desogen BCP

Quick question to those who have been on Desogen...

Did you find that the pill made you feel like crap? There's not really one major thing that it is doing to me but my tummy just feels "off," I'm cranky, tired and just feeling like I want to crawl into a hole and tell the entire world to pi$$ off.

*blink blink* This isn't me and yet has been me since starting this last Thursday. Nothing I can't deal with... but I'm afraid it's bugging the heck out of those who have to deal with me on a day-to-day basis. *smirk*

Anyone?

Today is CD1

Got a call back from the doc today and today has become CD1 and I am officially on the IVF journey. Stopping the medroxyprogesterone and starting on the Desogen birth control pill (BCP) and baby aspirin. According to my calendar I will stay on those through January 27th.

My next "milestone" day will be January 21st when I begin my Lupron injections. Knowing they are a SQ shot is very helpful and it sounds like I can ease into this whole prickly part of the treatment. (SQ means subcutaneous injection, meaning just under the skin and a small needle)

So this is good news and I'm not as broken as I was worried I was.

"That which does not kill us, makes us stronger."
- Friedrich Nietzche