Happy Valentine's Day

I wanted to take a moment and thank the Lord for guiding my love, my soul mate and my best friend into my life years ago. I can't imagine a life without him and now to have him not only patiently walking this journey with me ... but also being 110% committed and active (he gives me the injections every AM/PM) as we live the adventure together.

Honey, I love you beyond words.

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres." 1 Corinthians 13

CD23

Yesterday I went in for my progesterone test and today received the result... 29. *boggle* That is by far my highest level and I'm so glad to see that the femera is working for us. Another week and hopefully we'll get to test if AF doesn't show up.

Lately I've felt slightly sick to my stomach and crampy on that left side and today I'm home this afternoon as I took the full day off due to a violent migraine this morning. I thought I was going to get sick about three times but now my stomach has settled some and I have just that numb headache feeling. Aint life grand?

I heard the following scripture on the radio driving home yesterday after an emotional day - beautiful.

Psalm 32:8
"I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you."

God is Good

Today is CD3 and I had an u/s to see if my large cyst had passed on its own - otherwise we were going to need to take another month off and hit it with meds to get it to pass. There was no evidence of the cyst at all and we are able to start our Femara cycle and get on with trying for our miracle. God is so good.

We will be going on 7.5mg of Femara for this cycle and I'm also going to try to walk more along with maybe starting a bit of yoga. Promised myself I'd start slow - otherwise I tend to get overwhelmed and quit before I get going.

James 1:2-8
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does." Amen

My Blessing, a restful night

Last night I went to bed very early with a good book and let myself calm down. No Guitar Hero or computer work. By the time DH came to bed I was starting to fall asleep. I slept all night long - no anxiety attacks. Today I'm feeling a bit better and so thankful I had a good night.

Today I'll have my second acupuncture treatment for this cycle. He has them spaced out for CD1, CD12 and CD22. If nothing else I think it's made me relax a bit more AND I feel like I'm "doing something." My guy seems to really know his stuff and he's helped me with other things (back pain, etc) before... so here's hoping he'll get my "woman parts" all in tip-top shape.

Lastly I've recognized that I'm a type of person who feels that she needs to be in control at all times. Also someone who sees the world in black and white... win or fail. I realize it isn't fair to judge how I'm doing by either winning or failing... but it does explain why I'm so frustrated right now. Argh. Lord, take the wheel.

Again, the daily scripture really helps:
"... And after you have done everything you can, you will still be standing.”
- Ephesians 6:13

Cycle Day 11

Only one line this morning on the OPK - but that's to be expected. Hopefully we'll see a change by the weekend. Come on ovulation. *sigh*

Last night was a really, really rough night. Went to bed at 10:30pm and rolled around and felt my heart pounding (anxiety type of attack) for hours. I'm assuming I finally fell asleep by 3am as I don't remember seeing the clock after around 2:45am. So now I get a full day at work completely exhausted and yawning like crazy. I need a nap. Argh. No clue what kicked off the anxiety last night.

It sounds like Di had a good weekend and is still hanging in there. I'm so glad her husband, son and daughter are getting some quality time in. I remember going through that with my father and every moment is precious.

Finally, today's scripture struck a chord with me:
“Bow down to the Lord. He will lift you up.” (James 4:10)

A big ol Amen to that. Be well, all.

IUI

Ok, had the IUI this morning and the DH was a ROCK STAR! We had over 37million swimmers with 75% mobility. Last night I had some cramping around 9pm and this morning my tummy is a bit "off" and I have a headache ... so here's hopin for some ovulation.

So now we are on the 2ww. Will go in for some blood testing early next week and hopefully my progesterone will be higher then last month's .6 (no ovulation).

"The end of a matter is better than its beginning, and patience is better than pride." -Ecclesiastes 7:8