Cycle Day 11

Only one line this morning on the OPK - but that's to be expected. Hopefully we'll see a change by the weekend. Come on ovulation. *sigh*

Last night was a really, really rough night. Went to bed at 10:30pm and rolled around and felt my heart pounding (anxiety type of attack) for hours. I'm assuming I finally fell asleep by 3am as I don't remember seeing the clock after around 2:45am. So now I get a full day at work completely exhausted and yawning like crazy. I need a nap. Argh. No clue what kicked off the anxiety last night.

It sounds like Di had a good weekend and is still hanging in there. I'm so glad her husband, son and daughter are getting some quality time in. I remember going through that with my father and every moment is precious.

Finally, today's scripture struck a chord with me:
“Bow down to the Lord. He will lift you up.” (James 4:10)

A big ol Amen to that. Be well, all.

Cycle Day 10

Well, tomorrow will be CD11 and I'm going to start doing my daily OPK and hoping for 2 lines. I really, really hope that the Femera is going to get my body to ovulate this month. Keeping my fingers crossed. In the past it appears my follies don't mature until CD18 or so but I'm going to start tomorrow vs CD13... because I can. *smirk*

Thank you all for leaving notes on my blog here. It's amazing to have so much support through this difficult journey.

Huge blessings - thank you.

Oh look... another rollercoaster hill...

Well, went in for my u/s today (CD17) and told the gal (they are all SUPER nice where I go) that I'm not sure we should even do the "stupid" u/s (I was moody, I admit) because my line had gone away. She chuckled softly (in a nice way) and said that I shouldn't put all my stock into OPKs. She said "let's look anyway." So, I plunked down another $200 and... oh my gosh... good news?!?

I have 2 follies on the right side still (haven't O'd yet!) and she said they were 19 and 17. (which is really good...) So we do our IUI tomorrow morning. Going to talk to the DH about a possible back to back IUI (would be tomorrow and then also Wednesday) or we might wait another cycle and try that. I hate that all this is determined by the almighty dollar. *sigh* Any rich folks out there like to adopt a loving couple with fertility issues?

So there it is... I'm at the top of another hill and I'm going to let myself be happy - but guarded. Here we go again...

Fading Away

This morning I woke up and took my OPK test... and my faint line has vanished. I'm crushed. I can't help but be completely devistated and think there's no hope.

Maybe tomorrow will be better. *sigh*

Happy New Year!

Last night we went over to a friend's house and rang in the new year surrounded by good friends and a kiss from the DH at midnight. I found myself thinking back 5+ years and how I used to long for someone to call my own and settle down with. My DH is definately that man and I am so thankful for that blessing in my life.

This morning I woke up at my normal time for a restroom break and I used my daily OPK without even really thinking about it. As I waited and tried not to fall back asleep I noticed it produced a very slight line on the left... nowhere near where it needs to be - but the point here, my friends, is that there was a HINT of a LINE! This is awesome news. Hopefully the Clomid is doing its job! I love these small hints of hope that pop up along this journey.

Here's hoping I get a true second line this cycle... we shall see.