The Day Before

Today is CD2 so tomorrow I start my meds so I'm sipping on an adult beverage tonight just to relax and remind myself what beer tastes like. DH and I have begun to talk about insurance changes in the future and planning for IVF and even brushing with the ideas of adoption and such.

I wish I had more control with the planning that could go with building a family, but it appears that I need to "let go, and let God".

Tomorrow will be CD3 and back on Femara 7.5mg and another IUI cycle.

CD1

AF has arrived and the cramps are about a 8 out of 10. Midol on board and heating pad applied and hoping that things improve.

Working from home today as yesterday was an emotional struggle that made being at work uncomfortable for both myself and my co-workers who can't put their finger on what might be going on. I'm very blessed to have a boss who understands.

It's amazing just how many tears one seems to have.

CD23

Yesterday I went in for my progesterone test and today received the result... 29. *boggle* That is by far my highest level and I'm so glad to see that the femera is working for us. Another week and hopefully we'll get to test if AF doesn't show up.

Lately I've felt slightly sick to my stomach and crampy on that left side and today I'm home this afternoon as I took the full day off due to a violent migraine this morning. I thought I was going to get sick about three times but now my stomach has settled some and I have just that numb headache feeling. Aint life grand?

I heard the following scripture on the radio driving home yesterday after an emotional day - beautiful.

Psalm 32:8
"I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you."

CD15

U/S showed good news today. Left side (side that has been cramping like crazy) shows a 14 and a 24. I've never had a follie over 21 before so that's promising. Tomorrow is our day and then we begin the 2ww.

Sorry my updates have been few, far between and short but I guess I'm just as enthusiastic as I once was. So hard to stay positive. Any advice along that line would be more than welcome. We've been trying full on since November and it's starting to seem impossible.

*hugs* Thanks all.

CD14

Tomorrow morning I go in for my CD15 u/s to see how my follicles look. Tonight I'm trying to get some relief from cramping with a heating pad. It's crazy that I'm cramping like mad on the left side but we'll see more tomorrow morning. Bleh.

In other news, I bit down on a chip today at lunch and knocked off a bit of my lower silver filling. Now I'm really sensitive to hot and cold and need to get into the dentist. Bah, life is just one challenge after another.

Hanging in there and hope everyone else is well.

CD1

Called and refilled my prescription for Femara. Today is CD1 ... starting meds again on CD3, May 13th. Onwards to another cycle.

Tuesday

I'd love to be posting more but the honesty of the situation is that I'm down, I'm depressed and I'm becoming more convinced that fertility is just something I need to pack up, put away and move on. *Sigh* I'm trying to pull my sorry arse out of this funk but right now it's not happening.

Hang in there with me ... I'll get better.