Last night I went to bed very early with a good book and let myself calm down. No Guitar Hero or computer work. By the time DH came to bed I was starting to fall asleep. I slept all night long - no anxiety attacks. Today I'm feeling a bit better and so thankful I had a good night.
Today I'll have my second acupuncture treatment for this cycle. He has them spaced out for CD1, CD12 and CD22. If nothing else I think it's made me relax a bit more AND I feel like I'm "doing something." My guy seems to really know his stuff and he's helped me with other things (back pain, etc) before... so here's hoping he'll get my "woman parts" all in tip-top shape.
Lastly I've recognized that I'm a type of person who feels that she needs to be in control at all times. Also someone who sees the world in black and white... win or fail. I realize it isn't fair to judge how I'm doing by either winning or failing... but it does explain why I'm so frustrated right now. Argh. Lord, take the wheel.
Again, the daily scripture really helps:
"... And after you have done everything you can, you will still be standing.”
- Ephesians 6:13
Dicari Mesin Spinner Indah Mesin
8 years ago
You are not alone! I also hate being out of control. Letting go is one of the hardest things I ever do. It got better once I started meditating, but letting go is something I still struggle with.
ReplyDeleteCheck out centering prayer. It helps me.
Here is the address
http://www.centeringprayer.com/
YEAH for a good nights rest. How wonderful and I am so glad for you. I am also happy that the acupuncture treatment is doing amazing things for you. How wonderful that must feel.
ReplyDeleteWell, you did it again. I have been searching for the reason as to why I am holding on to TTC and not able to fully give it to God. You hit the nail on the head for me...control!!! Wow! It is so hard to let it go because I am scared that it will not happen. So, I guess along with needing to be in control, I have issues with fear as well. Thanks for sharing. Just like VA Blondie, you are so not alone my dear.
We remember you in our thoughts and prayers every day.
Hugs and blessings,
Stacey